Friday, March 31, 2023

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 I learned something this week.  People are people, and perfect they are not.  What I once valued to be true, turned out to be the biggest lie.

Where at first I was angry when this lie was exposed to me God gave me understanding.  Taking offense to what others say and do, or to what others not say and do is unwise because the Bible tells us that Jesus didn't put His trust in any man,  He expected mankind to mess up.  

Having Bipolar disorder, this concept was strange to me because of the many fears I had of the world. My black and white mentality has conditioned me view things as good and evil.  There are people who are good and people who are evil.  Understanding and wisdom showed me that this is not so.  

People have hang ups and most have been raised in the Spirit of the Age and not in Truth.  People's concepts and ideals are of mixed variety where you need an instruction manual in order to get along in the world.  This explains all the self help and how-to books out there (not knocking them, of course). 

After some  Bible reading, praying and speaking with my mentor, I gained knowledge about humanity and its many foibles.

I still take my medicine because my disorders are chemical and in the natural.  I read my Bible because my chemical imbalance triggers convoluted beliefs in a world system that has been failing since the beginning of time.   

Well, today now marks the end of March!  Tomorrow is a new day marking the first of several of God's blessings.

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