Laurie's Journal

Good afternoon all! Thank you for allowing me to cry out to God yesterday. I read Psalm 2 or at least Psalm 2 read me.  The message is clear: defy God and remain broken. Surrender and obey and be blessed.   "Why do the nations rage, And the people plot a vain thing? The kings of the earth set themselves, And the rulers take counsel together, Against the LORD and against His Anointed,  saying, 'Let us break Their bonds in pieces And cast away Their cords from us.'" I have been fighting lately, but it has been like pounding sand.  Completely useless. Who can fight with God??? Moreover, why would you want to fight or defy God??? The only battles we win are the battles we fight on our knees with God as the front Man. My main hang up was that I needed to be in control of EVERYTHING.  Thankfully, I was warned PLENTY before I acted out any willful intentions that could prove to be dangerous.   God help me to stay under  Your umbrella and not to stray. Help me to stick to my

 Hello, all! I have a confession to make.  It has to do with my spirituality.  I am writing this to you dear readers as I am writing this to God, and my Lord and Savior Jesus Christ.  I have not been reading my Bible as I should be doing because I was angry with God.   As a result, I was starving myself of the Bread of the Word, but at the end of the day I was only hurting myself.   Oh dear Heavenly Father please help me come back to You! Circumstances of life have caused me to run away from You with self-will run riot.  In the process, I have looked to everything else but You for my help.  I have willfully tried to sabotage my 23-year long relationship with You because I didn't believe in Your power to graciously get me to the other side of my circumstances.  I knew better, but I was tempted anyway. I run to You Heavenly Father, and I run back to the Cross. Oh, God help me!  I sit here writing this with tears in my eyes humbly asking You to forgive me for my willfulness, my spitef

 Sorry about the delay in catching up! I was pretty much oscillating between mania and depression in the month of October.  But now I'm back stronger than ever.  I'm living proof that living with manic/depression requires so much more than simply medicine. How did I get through it? The only way through is through, as I've heard it said.  I had to use my tools of positive self-talk, surrendering my anxieties to God and of course staying in line with medication and self-care. Now, I'm looking forward to the holiday season and, of course, Florida for my brother Ron's wedding. 70 degree winter break here we come! I have to go to work soon, so I think I'll relax with some meditations and some positive prayerful personal confessions. Until next time! Bye for now! Love you.