Monday. May 8, 2023

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 Hey there!

I worked tonight, and I'm exhausted!  I don't have to work tomorrow, but I need to walk down to Target with John.

Nothing much else going on except me praying three times per day for God's will for our lives.  My church mentor said God already knows my needs and desires, so I only need to pray for God's will.

I've been writing in my journal and reading my Bible everyday.  

Well, goodnight for now.

I love you. ;)

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