Thursday, March 23, 2023

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I did some Spring cleaning yesterday with my cousin because to do it by myself would be overwhelming.  I cannot believe we were tossing magazines from 2014.  It was incredibly freeing.

I also Spring cleaned emails, social media accounts and files.  I found some poems I wrote some years ago, and I'm glad I did.  

Unearthing creative works I used to enjoy writing made me very happy.  

I don't know why I was initially afraid.  Discoveries from your past can be pleasant and sweet, and not necessarily dark and salty. 

Maybe I will delve back into my creative writing because I was quite good at it.  

I listened to today's devotional and read Psalm 123.  My devotional spoke about surrendering the self, and the Psalm spoke about looking to the Lord for mercy.

I think we all need mercy when surrendering ourselves.  

As I physically surrendered junk yesterday, I was reminded of my gifts in a gentle merciful way,  God also gave me mercy to have mercy on myself as I surrendered  stuff, and not to feel guilty for parting ways with it.

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  1. MiluMarch 31, 2023 at 3:54 PM

    Love reading this, Laurie. Never stop writing; it helps you and helps others.😀

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