Thursday, November 2, 2023

-

 Sorry about the delay in catching up!

I was pretty much oscillating between mania and depression in the month of October.  But now I'm back stronger than ever.  I'm living proof that living with manic/depression requires so much more than simply medicine.

How did I get through it?

The only way through is through, as I've heard it said.  I had to use my tools of positive self-talk, surrendering my anxieties to God and of course staying in line with medication and self-care.

Now, I'm looking forward to the holiday season and, of course, Florida for my brother Ron's wedding.

70 degree winter break here we come!

I have to go to work soon, so I think I'll relax with some meditations and some positive prayerful personal confessions.

Until next time!

Bye for now!

Love you.

Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

Thursday, March 23, 2023

-
I did some Spring cleaning yesterday with my cousin because to do it by myself would be overwhelming.  I cannot believe we were tossing magazines from 2014.  It was incredibly freeing. I also Spring cleaned emails, social media accounts and files.  I found some poems I wrote some years ago, and I'm glad I did.   Unearthing creative works I used to enjoy writing made me very happy.   I don't know why I was initially afraid.  Discoveries from your past can be pleasant and sweet, and not necessarily dark and salty.  Maybe I will delve back into my creative writing because I was quite good at it.   I listened to today's devotional and read Psalm 123.  My devotional spoke about surrendering the self, and the Psalm spoke about looking to the Lord for mercy. I think we all need mercy when surrendering ourselves.   As I physically surrendered junk yesterday, I was reminded of my gifts in a gentle merciful way,  God also gave me mercy to have mercy on myself as I surrendered  stuff,
Read more

Tuesday, March 21, 2023

-
  Spring is here.  A New Season.   My Season.  Buds shyly coming through on the winter-stripped trees.  I shyly come into my own.  I recently started reading my Bible in earnest, instead of grabbing a Scripture here and there like stray leaves in the wind.  My ups were way up and my downs were way down.  Medicine was only numbing the pain into a dull throb.  Therapy was only my sounding board, I want something more.  I started volunteering at my church on my days off from work. Finding purpose. There has to be something else.  I don't know what I am looking for, yearning for... ...maybe I will find it in my work, or in my volunteering. Perhaps. I am being cautiously optimistic, but I hope to drop the "caution" to the wind one day.
Read more

Tuesday, December 19, 2023

-
Hello, all! Seasons greetings to all!  Living one day at a time by faith.  Things are slowly starting to peek through the curtains of obscurity as to what God's plan is for my life.  Certain people are basically pissing me off more and more as I learn more about God's Word. Why???!!! The answer is simple.  People-especially those who are not saved by Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ-are dumb as shit to be completely real. Sorry.  I am hard pressed not to be angry because it's difficult to have patience with utter stupidity. Sorry, well, not sorry. I've had severe bipolar for 25 years.  At first, I didn't know what was bothering me because during the 1980s "Manic-depression," as it was called was not something you spoke about publicly.  There was a shame attached to having mental illness in those days.  Currently, with a stigma nearly lifted, mental illness is now starting to be recognized as a disability. I caught up with my disease and how our society views
Read more