Monday, November 10, 2025

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 Yes, I have my eccentricities.

In my world (circa mid 1980s), New York as we know it in 2025 doesn't exist. Politicians? Who? In my teens, I could care less. I avoid anything that I find unsavory would not fit neatly into my pre-9/11 world.  I don't watch 2025 news, I watch 1980s "nostalgia news." 

I feel that this mindset protects me from the horrible realities of 2025.  In my world, 2025 is safely tucked away in the long distance of 40-something years. 

My barrier of safety, should I decide to revisit the 90s ends there.

See you soon!  In the 80s.

xoxo

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