Friday, April 14, 2023

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 Hey there.

***TRIGGER WARNING***

Yesterday was a bad day for me.  

Let's be real.  

Anxiety took over, or I allowed it to take over.  I wasn't feeling myself at all.  I called my therapist and my psychiatrist, and then my spiritual leaders.

This is how anxiety affects me.  

For me, anxiety is a chemical thing where I have my good days and I have my bad days.  

Yesterday was one of those bad days.  One where my outlook on life stinks and everything seems to be happening at once.  I get overwhelmed.

I took my bedtime meds, and now I feel much better that I got some well deserved rest.

Despite how we feel, life happens and will continue to happen. 

Sometimes faking it until you make it doesn't work, especially when I feel like I'm carrying the very depths of Hell inside me.  My insides churn while I smile on the outside, so people don't see how I'm really feeling.

I received a hug from a friend, and my husband John also gave me a hug.  Hugs from trusted people are the best medicine.  I'm not saying that we shouldn't take our medicine, but I'm saying that hugs are priceless.

Anyway, God wants us all to keep smiling (both on the outside and on the inside), and He wants us to know He will bring us through our darkest of days.

Life is good as long as the Holy Spirit is here to comfort us.  I'm tired of saying:  "It is what it is."

That breeds negativity and it speaks volumes about the attitude that things will never get better.   

I'll see you guys next time, and remember to keep smiling, and keep taking care of yourselves.

I love you.

;)

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